I didn’t expect Sean to say that to me one day!
He left me for no reason!
Now he said that!
But Sean didn’t let me go. He approached me and said angrily, “what if I don’t agree?”
“I will call the police!”
I said excitedly.
Sean sneered. “Come on!”
He just picked me up and pressed me on the bed!
“Let go of me!”
“You’ve tasted fresh meat, so you start to dislike me?”
“What are you talking about? Get out of here! Don’t touch me!”
I was angry!
I was resentful!
Sean seemed to suddenly become someone I didn’t know!
Suddenly someone knocked at the door. Then I heard Philip shouting, “Becky, are you ok?”
Sean covered my mouth and smiled sarcastically. “He seems worried about you. Why don’t you let him in and watch us make love?”
I looked at Sean in disbelief.
Why did he become like this?
I shook my head.
Sean sneered. “If you don’t want him to see you, let him go.” He paused and continued, “then give it to me.”
I stared at Sean quietly and realized that he had changed.
He did the same thing when I married him for Molly.
I remembered him saying, “I am never a good person.”
I was scared!
I shouldn’t let Philip get involved.
I hesitated for a long time and nodded.
Sean let me go. I stood up and walked slowly to the door.
Now Philip was knocking and shouting, “Becky? Can I help you?”
I went to the door and said, “I’m fine. You can play with Lester. You don’t have to go upstairs. I’ll be downstairs later.”
“Becky, are you ok? Open the door.”
There was concern in Philip’s voice.
I hesitated and opened the door a little.
Philip looked at me and into the room. He said nervously, “are you ok?”
“I’m fine.” I smiled reluctantly. “I have to close the door. We need to talk. You can make dinner and eat with Lester.”
What I have said was obvious.
Philip was not willing.
He stood for a long time and didn’t seem to want to leave, but I closed the door.
I turned around and saw the taunt in Sean’s eyes. “You hurt him so you’re sad?”
“Shut up!” I looked up at Sean and asked, “what happened? Why are you like this?”
“You want to know?” Sean reached out and hugged me.
He turned over and pressed me under him.
He looked down at me. “I gambled for you with my life, but you live with him. Do you think I should be angry or not?”
I was totally stunned.
But he didn’t seem to want to go on. He forced me directly!
I felt terrible.
I hadn’t had this pain for a long time.
I thought of my first night.
But I didn’t shout. I just bit my teeth and let Sean vent.
About half an hour later, it was over.
I lay in bed and didn’t move. I looked at Sean and asked, “what do you mean by gambling your life for me?”
He turned and looked at me and said, “I lied to you.”
Then he opened the door and left.
I was the only one left in the room when the door was closed.
Looking at Sherry’s picture, I had a deep feeling that Sean was not lying to me.
He was really doing something for me.
“Why don’t you let me know? Why don’t you let me share?”
I was reluctant.
But I was helpless. I didn’t know who to ask Sean what exactly he did.
There was a knock at the door.
Soon I heard Philip’s voice, “Becky, are you ok?”
“I’m fine.” I replied, “I’ll be out in a minute.”
With that, I endured the pain and stood up. I went to the bathroom to take a shower. I dried my hair and changed my clothes and opened the door.
When I went out, I looked up and saw Philip standing on the second floor of the stairs playing with his cell phone.
He heard my voice and looked up at once. He smiled and said, “I made dinner. Let’s have dinner.”
I knew he cared about me.
I thought it would be nice if Philip was my brother.
I went downstairs. Philip had made dinner and put it on the table.
Lester sat down and looked at me. He pouted. “Mom, why did dad leave? He doesn’t seem happy.”
“He’s fine.” I raised my hand and touched Lester’s hair.
I didn’t know how to tell Lester.
I wanted to wash the dishes after supper. Philip offered to help me. After everything was done and Lester fell asleep, Philip said, “Becky, I thought about it. I’d better not live in your house. After all, if he comes next time, he will misunderstand.”
“It’s OK. You…”
“Don’t worry. Now there is the last bus. If I can’t catch the last bus next time, I’ll live here. If I can, I’ll go back.”
I felt more guilty.
Lester and I insisted on keeping him.
I thought about it and said, “no, the vacation is over. You can live in school later. If you’re free on the weekend, you take care of Lester for me. I’ll pay you.”
I said immediately.
Philip was a little embarrassed. “Thank you, Becky.”
With that, he went upstairs.
I sat alone in the living room and thought about what happened just now. I knew I was ovulating these days. I had to take birth control pills.
So I put on my coat and shoes and went out.
The drugstore was not far from the community.
I walked less than ten minutes.
I bought the pill and came out. I wanted to go back to the community, but I heard someone behind me saying, “don’t you want my baby?”
This voice was too familiar to me.
At the same time, it was strange.
How long hadn’t Sean done this to me?
I turned around and saw Sean standing not far away. I couldn’t see his expression, but I could feel his cold breath.