When I heard Ming say that, I felt very creepy.
I opened my eyes wide and said, “you…”
“I didn’t kill her.” Ming smiled bitterly. “She died before I graduated. She died before I killed her…”
I was relieved.
Ming’s face moved. I was finally sure he was looking at me. He looked at me and said, “then I went back to Jessop Family. At first I didn’t want Jessop Family destroyed. I tried to integrate with them, so I redoubled my efforts. I pretended not to hear their mockery of me. I wanted to be nice to them.
But I found that their view of me would never change. No matter what I did, I was just a wild dog begging for food in their eyes.”
Ming’s words touched me deeply.
He was talking about himself but I thought he was talking about me.
When I lived in Carter Family, I felt their attitude towards me, but I still tried to integrate with them.
I was just deluding myself.
I looked at Ming and nodded, “I understand you.”
“I know.” Ming raised his hand and wiped his face and woke himself up. He continued, “so I want to keep you with me. I know we have the same experience. I want to be nice to you. I love you as I love the one I used to be.”
He loved me as he loved the one he used to be.
I looked at Ming and seemed to suddenly understand a lot.
I shook my head. “You don’t have to worry about me. I’ll be fine. I have my son Lester. I have a good friend Daisy and a good partner Linda. I have a man who loves me. I’m fine. You don’t have to worry about me.”
I was really rich.
I was not the timid June anymore.
Ming stood up and walked up to me step by step and said, “but if I don’t keep you with me, I will worry about you. What should I do?”
“You should pursue your own happiness. I will really take care of myself.”
“Nobody knows what I just said, including Marcia.” Ming came to me and looked down at me. “I said I love you. Can’t you stay with me? Am I worse than him? I can make it up.”
Ming’s voice was even a little imploring.
I had never seen him so humble.
Ming reached out and hugged me. “I can not touch you. I can not embarrass you. I just want you to stay with me. We both have the same experience. We are the best match. Sean has been coddled. He will never understand what you think.”
Ming held me tight.
I didn’t struggle.
I finally understood Ming’s attitude towards me.
He had always been like an elder to me. When he cared for me, he was actually making up for himself.
I didn’t move and said, “Ming, I’m happy now. You don’t need to make up for anything for me. You should go to the person you love. You should go to Marcia.”
“No.” He shook his head. “Actually, I just want to see you today. I know you’re not going with me. Maybe we will never meet again after today.”
I was nervous.
I had a bad feeling.
Ming said nothing. He just held me tight.
After a while, there was a car noise at the door. Then I heard someone open the door with a key.
Ming suddenly released me and backed away. He looked at me and raised his hand. He touched my head with his big hand and said softly, “I’m sorry.”
His face was still tender and he was smiling.
With that, he turned and left.
Then the door was opened.
Linda and Sean were standing at the door.
They saw him and looked inside at once. When they saw me standing there intact, they seemed relieved.
Ming said nothing. He passed them and left.
He soon disappeared in the dark.
Sean came in and took a look at the cell phone on the sofa. He came up to me and nervously asked, “what did he do to you?”
“Nothing.” I shook my head.
I was thinking about what Ming just said. I was in a complex mood.
His words seemed to have other meanings. I looked at his back and felt as if we would never see each other again.
Sean was sure I wasn’t hurt and he was relieved. He raised his hand and straightened my hair, which had just been messed up by Ming, and he said, “let’s go home.”
“OK.” I nodded and walked to Linda first. I hugged her and said, “thank you.”
Linda froze and said, “it’s OK. I’m afraid something will happen to you. If there’s something wrong with you, I’ll have to finish the projects by myself and work overtime later.”
“Nothing will happen to me. I’ll do all the projects with you in the future.” I was holding Linda and happy.
Compared with Ming, I was happy.
Maybe it was because I knew how to cherish and I felt satisfied easily.
I thought if Ming was willing to figure it out, maybe Marcia was the right person for him.
Last night, I was wondering what Ming meant, but the next morning, when I came to the studio, I understood.
Today Ming’s news was replaced by a new gossip.
I was the illegitimate daughter of Nelson, the current president of Lewis Group. My mother, Margaret, was also involved.
The gossip suddenly overshadowed Ming’s news.
Meanwhile, my relationship with Sean and Cindy had been reorganized.
They thought we were fighting for the same man.
When I watched this news, my mood was complicated and I had many questions.
I didn’t know what my relationship with Lewis Group was.
The only thing I was sure of was that few people knew about my mother. Apart from me, Murray and Well Family, Ming was the one who knew the most about this matter!
Well Family would not ruin its own reputation. Murray wouldn’t hurt Margaret either.
Apart from that, there was only one person left.