At that moment, I did not hesitate to hold Margaret!
She was shocked and struggling. She scratched me desperately and scratched my clothes and body with her sharp nails.
I could feel her scratching the back of my neck, but I didn’t want to let go.
I hugged Margaret and whispered in her ear, “don’t be afraid. We will not hurt you, and I will protect you. No one will hurt you in the future. Don’t be afraid…”
I spoke in Margaret’s ear and told her not to be afraid.
After a while, she finally calmed down.
Then she reached out and hugged me.
I could feel her arms still shaking. She plucked up the courage to hold me.
I hugged her and said, “it’s all over. No one will hurt you again. I will protect you.”
At this moment, I realized that I was alive because Margaret fought for her children just like me.
The difference was that I lost but she won.
“OK.” Margaret held me and nodded desperately.
I whispered in her ear, “thank you.”
I knew that she couldn’t accept that I was her daughter now, but I believed everything would be better.
In the near future, I could definitely call her Mom.
After I soothed her, I helped Margaret to the sofa and sat her down and said, “I’ll keep making clothes for them later.”
“OK.” Margaret nodded.
She was obedient as a child.
I spent a day in the hospital. Margaret went to bed early in the evening. She fell asleep and Murray asked me, “how are you and Ming doing?”
“We’re fine.” I replied unnaturally.
Murray said seriously, “don’t I know you? You are not as close to him as you used to be. What happened?”
Murray was usually casual, but he knew a lot of things.
I sat there and packed the dolls’ clothes. I lowered my head and thought and said, “it’s OK.”
“Do you think I don’t watch the news? I know Sean and Cindy are divorced. You two…”
I immediately denied it.
I was guilty.
Murray went to his desk and looked at the picture he had painted during the day. “Sean and Ming are arrogant, but all powerful people are. They think they can get anything, but they forget that people are not objects. It’s price that controls objects, but it’s feeling that controls people. Feelings are priceless.”
I looked at Murray and didn’t speak.
Murray put it away and went on, “your weakness is that you are too kind. You don’t want to hurt anyone but in the end you hurt yourself, or you hurt everyone, including yourself.”
I was stunned by Murray’s words. I muttered, “I hurt everyone…”
Was that so?
“But you are not to blame. Ming looks gentle, but he is stubborn. He has to get what he wants. ” Murray looked at me. “Ming and Sean are at odds, but sometimes you can play a key role.”
At this time, the door of the ward opened. Ming came in and saw us. He said hello politely to Murray and then asked me, “do you want to go home?”
“Yes.” I nodded.
I followed Ming and thought of what Murray had just said.
Who did I belong to?
I didn’t know either.
In the evening, I followed Ming back.
As soon as we got into the house, Erin stood there and said respectfully, “master, madam, you are back.”
I looked up at the clock in the living room. It was almost twelve o’clock.
I didn’t think it was strange if other people were waiting for us. But she was waiting for us. I knew why she did it.
Ming had been with me for the new year, so she had been ignored.
Ming stood behind me. I couldn’t see his expression, but I didn’t care. I just changed my shoes and walked in.
Ming didn’t follow me but I didn’t ask and just walked upstairs.
At the turn of the stairs, I saw Erin standing sideways and touching Ming’s crotch. Her eyes were full of ambiguity, and Ming did not refuse.
I turned around and went upstairs.
Lester had gone to bed. I went to check Lester’s condition and made sure that he was in good condition. I went to take a shower first. When I put on my bathrobe and came out, Ming just came by. He said coldly, “I have some work to do. You go to bed first.”
“OK.” I knew what he was going to do and smiled reluctantly, “go ahead. Don’t be too tired.”
Ming was smart and knew what I meant. But he didn’t respond. He nodded and left.
I was in bed and couldn’t sleep so I got up.
The moonlight outside the window was cold. I looked at it and thought that Ming must have sex with Erin downstairs.
When I thought of his vows and my guilt in the past few days, I just felt ridiculous at this moment.
But this was the only relationship I had with him.
I didn’t love him. Respect was also a good choice.
After all, men’s needs were different from women’s. Even if they didn’t love, they could have sex.
I stood at the window for a while and heard footsteps behind me. I knew it was not Ming’s but the sound of the bottom of the servant’s cloth shoes rubbing the floor.
I turned around and saw not Doris but Briana.
Briana saw me awake and came in and respectfully called me, “madam.”
“Why haven’t you slept? Did they bother you?” I asked with concern.
Briana looked even more sad. “Madam, you indulge Erin and master…”
I turned and patted Briana on the shoulder, “thank you for your concern. I don’t blame him. I can’t give it to him, so I can’t stop others from giving it to him.”
After all, he had desires.
Briana sighed, “but Erin might really beat you.”
“Really? I can move out and make room for her.” I asked Briana, “why do you think so?”
Briana was an old servant of Jessop Family and had seen many of these things.
It was only a temporary affair between the master and the servant.
How could someone take it seriously?