Bella sat in front of Kate Andrew. Kate Andrew looked at Bella defensively, "don't dare to rob my child. Go away. " Bella felt sad. She lifted Kate Andrew's hair, leaned over, kissed her on the forehead, and whispered, "Mom, I'm sorry, I can't take care of you in the future. If there is an afterlife, I want to be your daughter again. Thank you for everything that you've done for me." Kate Andrew looked at Bella in a trance. "Richard says he only loves me." "Well, he only loves you," Bella said. Kate Andrew smiled. "I knew that he only loved me. I didn't have anything at the beginning. I was just an orphan. Richard married me despite his family's opposition. He really loved me." Bella nodded, stopped looking, and walked out. She didn't want to be like her mother in the future.
As compared to living in a dream, it's better to die with a dream. But what will she do? River jumping is the most difficult way to die. Water will enter from the nose and mouth, scratching the heart and lungs, she will suffocate for long before dying. After death, the body will be puffy. It she jumped from a building she will die as a crippled. It's ugly to die. Drinking poison, generally, can't die in two or three hours. Take a few sleeping pills, fall asleep and die.
She thought of cutting her wrists. But it will be painful. It will cause too much blood loss. The face will become very ugly. But she can do a little makeup. She can't die at Amelia William's place to make trouble for Amelia William. She can't die in a hotel and make trouble for strangers. Die in wilderness, but afraid to be found, and more afraid that if no one found, the body will stink and rotten. She didn't have a home. She didn't have her own space. There is only Richard Johnson. She is Richard Johnson's daughter. She should make him responsible for this flesh and blood body.